Waiting For Tomorrow

Sometimes you hear something about the future you're curious to have come to pass but then you think, "Oh that's so far from now it's irrelivent". Leo Le Port has caught himself saying a few times "Well, this coming development will affect my children but it probably won't affect me". In last Tuesday's "Nova" episode they began with a statement by Sir Isaac Newton that "In the year 2060 gravity will cease to exist". This is an intriguing statement, but they never came back to it; it was just bait. I happened to think it's close to our year of 2061 when we said the Warp drive as in startrek will be invented. I searched and found the number 2061 in three different blogs, "Rocca Rolla", "Wheels of Retrobution" (under Kill Kill Kill) and also "Cosmic Tides". What they did not go into was the discovery of the graviton, which may have existed only in Star Trek forty years ago but has now in fact been discovered as a subatomic particle, or some would say "string". Only it isn't a normal horse shoe string but rather a circular string, which means it has less power than it otherwise would have. For all practical perposes scientists have regarded gravity as like God in that it is universal. It's everywhere and inescapable. Perhaps not. If they can isolate the graviton, which they have, they can get rid of it so that matter will no longer be subject to it. As you know in the "Stuff" I write I make reference to space folding and also hyperspace. These are two varients of the same concept. That space as we know it is more illusion than reality and we're "missing a key dimension". Newton did not know this. Some say that there are mysterious mathematical formulas of Newton he never developed that were later used to prove the "string" theory of subatomic matter. Just between you and me the difference between a "string" and a "particle" seems a little accademic to me. Functionally they are both mysterious things in the subatomic realm of matter that obey their own QUIRKy set of physics laws. When the last Star Trek series began, the one from 2001, I was hoping it would go "back to the beginning" when the warp drive concept was first invented and how the population of earth responded to it. If history is to imotate art, soon after scientists harnis (or rather "unhinge") the graviton, we shall soon receive a visitation from an alien civilization from space. I'll be pushing a hundred and ten if I'm even still alive by then. Waiting for tomorrow can be frustrating because a lot can happen in such a short time. In the six years I've lived here I'd say there has been about a two thirds turnover in population. When I lived in my apartment for thirteen there was a hundred percent turnover in population- multiple times. I was a regular Methusalah. You could tell what year it was by the roster of tennants. We all saw the Brady Bunch kids "grow up", which seems like a long time, but that series was only on the air for six years. The Cosby kids were only on the air eight. And yet they say, for instance, a typical Bible Study group only lasts about two and a half years. Three years ago such key soap opera characters as Chelsea, Nick, and E J Wells didn't exist, I don't think. Right now as I look at the electionf of January and early February of 2008 that seems an eternity off. Sometimes events in a person's life can turn around on a dime, if God wills it to be that way.

This is only a half hour later but I did leave out one paragraph I had planned even though it would seem to "break the flow" a bit. It's kind of like Emerson Lake and Palmer completing the "Brain Salad Surgery" album and then saying "Oh would you look at that - we don't have room for the title song!" Sir Isaac Newton believed that gravity was a unifersal fource. In the Nova segment they didn't expressly give Johan Kepler credit for a key discovery about diving an orbital elipse into segments and each edge represents speed of orbit and the areas of the circle traversed are all equal despite orbital speed and distance being altered. You know, people say that guns shot into the air kill when the bullets come down. But this violates Newtonian psysics. If an object falls in a parabala on its downward path- - all parabalas are the same shape despite the distance traveled beforehand when the object was accelerating to the apex or peak. If a baseball is hit at home place and rises to twenty feet and hits the ground at a thirty degree angle, the ball comes in no faster than if you had physically thrown the baseball from a much shorter distance and the apex rose to twenty feet and came down at a thirty degree angle. Pure physics would suggest that the balls would have to be hitting the ground at the same speed. So if you drop a penny off the Empire State building and they now say it wouldn't hurt you- - which weighs more? A bullet or a penny? If a bullet rises to a heighth equal to the empire state building and then falls, it shouldn't hurt you either. But that's not what I wanted to talk about. I wanted to talk about Newtons idea of universal laws in nature. Newton spent a lot of time in alchemy trying to come up with the invention of the Philosopher's stone, which was some purple alloy that was said to have mystic powers. Well a modern scientist followed Newton's directions and came up with a purplish metallic alloy. But that's all it was. Newton was apparently captivated by the way certain metallic (?) crystals formed and they appeared to have almost lifelike properties the way plants grow. That brings us to the year 2061. We we be alive to see it? The age old question is what is the nature of the soul. If you believe the Eccliastes model in the Bible the soul is like a ping pong ball in some hopper and every so often a ball pops out and this is the one that now has earthly life and when its life in this body is spent the ball goes back in the hopper, kind of like a transporter beam in continuous diagnostic mode that saved Scotty. However this assumes a homogenious nature of the soul as being like a cord or strand. But what if the soul is like some amorphus liquid plasma substance that shares its reality in the sixth dimension? Suppose each sperm and egg truely does "induce" from out of the sixth dimension some of this "plasma" "life fource". Suppose this "life fource" is just another discription of what God is like, like gravity being a universal phenominum whose existance is accepted as axiomatic. (unprovable) After you die- - the illusion that is you vanishes and your consciousness or the ILLUSION (not to discredit Descartes or anything) Cogito Ergo Sum - - the illusion of what you've always thought was you is now spread far flung in other bodies. If this plasma life subatance contains your engrams, consciousness, and will, than indeed there would be a YOU in your past and a YOU in your future but this peculiar combination you "Thought" was you right now through your peculiar (particular) DNA is spread out all over. Nonetheless when people die they aren't conscious of their own deaths. They don't thing "Well gee, isn't it sad I'm no longer alive". Last night a woman here had a party for her dead husband, whose birthday it was. I didn't want to tell her it was the 25th. anniversary of my committing suicide. It didn't seem relivant. At any rate the next thing I remember it was Saturday morning going on three days later. I had no notion of the passage of time. Neighter do the dead, if they're really dead. As to whether or not you'll be alive in 2060 I guess if you're like Guynen on Startrek and have some sixth sense of perception you may be aware enough to know who you are and where you were. Some would like to hasten this psychic awareness.

At the same time waiting for "developments" with President Bush is kind of like watching grass grow. So he's vetoed the Iraq War funding bill. Is that news? From last November on, six months ago, we all knew he was going to do that. The event barely even qualifies as news. Two months ago we are all looking forward to the Alberto Gonsolez hearings. What became of them? Nothing. Just as I predicted. The hearings were a non event. Now Sec. Rice is talking to Syria. We've heard roomers about Syria for months and months. It will probably take another six months to find out if anything came of the visit. Sylvia Browne says Bush is going to start withdrawing troops from Iraq this year. She isn't the only one. Roomers of "declaring victory and leaving" seem rampent these days. We look for the slightest change in the President's wording of a War issue for a glimmor of hope. People say "The President wouldn't DARE have the troops in Iraq for next year's primaries". I've learned never to second guess what our President wouldn't DARE do. Short of death or impeachment I just don't see any movement with our President. You'll have to pry the Veto pen from his cold, dead hands! Now we have the Republican debate at the Reagan library. Regan's name was invoked fourteen times among the ten candidate's and the President's only once. As Mr. KABC says, the Ronald Reagan legasy is being reinvented. Myth is more conforting than reality. Reagen backed down from terrorists in Lebanon. Reagen actually had TALKS with Gorvichev. Ronald Reagan ballonned the deficet. Nancy Reagen unlike the Republicans last night actually favors stem cell research. Who is to say what myth makers will do and say when George Bush leaves office. Nine months from now we will know the Party choices for President of the United States. People say "Bush HAS to end the War by then or the Republicans will lose the election". Again saying what the President HAS to do is always misguided. We're expecting rationality from an irrational mind. Indeed this is the most "unsensable" president we've ever had.

May fourth, today is the 27th. anniversary of the shooting of those four students by National Guard troopers at Kent State in 1970. I don't think charges were ever brought against the troopers, were they? Sometimes life can be a case of "waiting for Yesterday". Have you ever had "Discontenent" or non-contiguous memories? You have a CLEAR memory of certain events that aren't "The way people say it happened". Warf on startrek had this when he thought he won first place at a Klingon contest with the batleth, only to discover NEW that he got ninth place. And "You complained this morning of ringing in your ears when you came in my office and said your opponet had used an illegal move". Well, yeah- - a blow to the head might cause a memory lapse. In the files "Lites-out" and "Screwups" I play with viewers minds offering two different views of a period of time from about the first of May 1970 to about mid July 1970. Was this indeed a third time that I was inturred in a mental institution as delusional? In the story I "imagine" events I maintained really happened such as going to San Francisco with my Dad , and going to Catalina, and visiting Sea World. But did I only "imagine" these events. Perhaps my brain tried to "fill in the blanks" with pleasent events. The rap goes after I heard about the invasion by Nixon of Cambodia in mid April 1970 I started acting wierd. And a few days later it was Earth Day and the next day I had my pre induction physical for the draft. Perhaps I was faking this "illness" to convince the people in the Army I was insane so they wouldn't take me. "But I'm not faking it". But I continued to speak irrationally of "getting the revolution going". Then the Monday after Daylight Savings Time I showed up at group therapy and I really had a lot I needed to talk about this week. I needed them. But the meeting was cancled, which sent me over the edge and a few days later I was admitted to a Mental Institution, and I first learned about Kent St. from watching the TV at the place. I got out in mid July a few days before my brother's "house warming" party where there were a lot of girls and marijuana, but I was so socially withdrawn I didn't fit in well and before too long I left without telling anybody and walked the mile and a half plus back home. But the next group therapy session I went do didn't happen till Monday August 3rd. when I had a lot to talk about. Do you ever have "discontiguous" memories? I'll tell you a few things I KNOW that apparently aren't So. Led Zeppelin broke up in early October of 1979 right after John Bonnum died, which is right after "In through the out door" was released. The Steely Dan "Gaucho" album was released in 1979 and in early 1980 I remember seeing a "Best of" with "Hey Nineteen" and other songs from the Gaucho album on it. Sometimes things flip back and forth. I clearly remember in 1989 that "Building the Perfect Beast" by Don Henley was just being premiered. But later I heard "End of the Innocence" was his 3rd. album and "Beast" was his 2nd. out in early 1985. Wally Sherah. They said he went up in October 1962 but I clearly remember listening to the news on my Grandfather's car radio on the way to the ranch in August of 1962 and not October. I remember my brother quitting (or being fired?) from a Church job in January of 1991. But it was April 1992 my brother informed me was the one year anniversary of the firing, not January. I have clear detaled memories of events. But I searched my own writings from April 1991 and he was proven right. I remember hearing "Vasoline" by STP in February 1994 a few months before it came out. The radio played a fragment of the song then mysteriously switched to another station. Ah. But I had it on tape! Months later I played the tape back and "Vasoline" was NOT the mystery song. Oddly most of these "variences" (not the last one) can be narrowed down to a time period you can refine to about June of 1991. In this month my parents suddenly "resurrected" talk of mental illness, after the topic not being broached for over fifteen years. They even taunted me, "Pretty soon you're going to lose ALL your friends" when I complained the past week or two friends seemed to be avoiding me. One time in a report to my doctor made by my brother the doctor wanted me to see it and there was a line in there about "Getting mad and blowing off all his friends one by one". This event never happened. He made it up. Also the "Asshole from El Paso" responded VERY different to my July letter to him than he did to my April letter three months earlier. This has always mystified me. I know a depression came on me in June of 1991 even though I was doing things like buying new clothes and clearing out old stuff from dresser drawers. Maybe I slipped through a fifth dimensional portal.