Daring to be Real

We now take you to the Detention Center of the Sutterans' home planet to sector 29 G where Marcus Arelius is preparing to put "special" mushrooms on his Salisbury steak he bought for four dollars a peace in the dining room of his bored and careless home. On the way he passed Celeste and gave her a dirty look. "Marcus don't get mad at me. You should have known I was a double agent. With any luck next time I'll side with you and stab your enemies in the back". "I'd like that" Marcus said as he made his drug induced shuffle to his table.

- - (later that evening)- - -and then “Pearl Harbor”. We didn’t see any Japanese planes but there was a regular romantic horse opera concerning a guy and some nurses. I switched to that murder thing on Dateline where the bride “dreamed” she’d seen her husband come home about sunrise to the cabin where they were staying after committing murder. This is the one where the guilty party had to be sterile and her husband wasn’t 20 years later. Also none of the hairs in the victim’s body matched her husband’s, but the twelve person jury found him guilty anyhow. After this it was “Law and Order”. I slept well last night. I didn’t have the J C show on at any time but once gave the station a shot, but it was just commercials.

This is Monday April 30, 2007 and on this date in 1973 Richard Nixon fired Halderman, Erlichman, and John Dean. That evening on the way to class at Cypress where I was taking that psychological human relations class or whatever, which Mom was also taking, Mom happened to mention that the state of California was thinking of going on super daylight savings time, or pushing the clock ahead two hours rather than one. That would make things interesting but I’ve never heard another word about it. This is the class that had the Lucure color test, which Europeans use to new job applicants to assess their psychological balance. I picked black and then red and the code said that meant I had suppressed feelings that would lead to some sort of emotional explosion. On or about this date in 1974 Richard Nixon had those cases filled with the White House tapes he was parading before the TV cameras saying, “This should end all controversy about Watergate”. Of course in 1945 on this date Aldolph Hitler and Joseph Goebles blew their trains out in the bunker. Hitler took his wife Eva Braun with him and Joseph Geobles wasted his wife and kids with poisoned chocolates. On yesterday’s date in 1992 was of course the start of the LA riots, which was early on a Wednesday evening. I remember I wanted to record part two of a special on Ted Kennedy and Chapiquittic. It was a few days later that I made phone call number five to The Asshole from El Paso, in what resulted in the worst to date of the five phone calls, and the Pastor did something that could and should have probably gotten fired due to an ethics briech. I don’t know if they call it de frocking or what? I remember they published some consoling letter the Pastor sent to Regenald Denny after his beating and I thought, “How funny. He treats total strangers with compassion and he treats me like crap”. There are times I fanticised about writing Danien Football Williams a note saying “I know how you hate Snitches. Well, here’s a guy you forgot to waste”. Of course one of the things I liked about the Calvary Chapels right off was Chuck’s attitude twords revenge. “No, their position on revenge isn’t going to be any problem at all”. Another area where the Calvaries are more than accommodating to the flesh is in the area of giving of both time and money. You know Gary is always coming to me with these “deals” like he’s down to his last buck, when he anything but, and also like I’m the last person on earth and even though I’m broke he spends all his time trying to milk a dry turnup. The Calvaries don’t care, and often seem to prefer that you not bother, when it comes to donating either time or money.

At the Movies was on last night with Roger Ebert gone for the millionth time. After this it was George Tennant. Now a lot of people might take offense to the Sixty Minutes segment but not me. I found it refreshing that somebody actually had the courage to get up on camera and Be Real. The man was flustered and agitated and obviously mad at himself. An anger he transferred to everyone he talked about. He was pissed at the idea that the fact they used “enhanced interrogation techniques” was revealed. He was ticked about Valerie Plane being outed. It bothered him that when he said it would be a “Slam Dunk” he was referring to the marketing of the War and not to any statement of fact about weapons of mass destruction. George Tennant was frustrated that he had all his CIA agents out there working trying to come up with information when George Bush had already made up his mind he was going to war in Iraq. In everything Tennant said he supported the Woodward book. He was ticked off at Clinton for ignoring his warnings but more pissed at George Bush for ignoring his more blatent and specific warnings about Al Qaida, like in July of 2001. Instead the whole report was shuffled off to Secretary Rice, whom in turn delegated it to lower level employees to study. We need people who are Real. We need people who are human enough to get upset when things don’t go their way and show it. We all can’t be like Secretary Rice and all the rest of those Bush Adminestration stooges who are so doped with qualudes and prozac that they are beyond feeling anything when they talk but look and sound like programmed zombies, just like Rev. you-know-who sounded like “HAL” in some of our conversation. He liked to push my buttons and get me angry but he never got angry himself, which in itself was a form of passive aggression, showing he was “above it all”.

Then they had the thing on mental illness and guns. I would just like to say the following. Of the people who seek to buy guns honestly and perhaps need to get one quickly, how many of those people are certifyably mentally ill. I myself have never been involuntarily committed as insane by a judge to a mental institution. Of course “Reverand Asshole” would probably love to spread the roomer that I was, judging from other things he’s said about me. That sounds like a fairly narrowly defined group of people and it sounds reasonable. But what if they expand the category soon to include all people who have been hospitalized? Then suppose they extend it to people who don’t do well on psychological tests, such as the kind they talk about in “Bigger Secrets”. Then suppose they have some “political aptitude” test you have to pass to make sure you aren’t a communist or something? Now here’s another question. Of all the murders and burglaries and muggings and the like where guns are used- - what percentage of those guns used in said felonies, were in every way purchased in an open and above board legal manner? Not many, I’d recon. Therefore the savings of lives would be minimal at best. OK those 33 people would be alive. But how many people get killed in War, or in traffic accidents or by some horrible disease caused by environmental pollution? Keep in mind what happened at Virginia Tech was the most flookish of incidents. I fear a world where everyone is paranoid hiding behind locked doors and not going out to parks or movies all because they’re afraid of either being mugged or having their child kidnapped and molested. Of course in Britain they have video cameras on every traffic corner. Is anyone proposing we do that here? What I fear is that the peramaters of “normal” will be narrowed down to some atomoton with no mind of his own and who believes only what the government tells him. I think we’re already headed in that direction.

There was a double Simpsons last night and then “Family Guy”. I had some dream last night I was arrested by the police for jay-walking or something and I was held in a police station for several hours before they decided whether I was to be thrown in jail. There were times I thought I’d be released then I wasn’t. There was talk maybe I would be transported to Las Vegas. In the course of time I was beaten with a baton, and I was grabbed and given a real “nerd” haircut. At the end of the movie some guy gave a speech and at dawned on me the rest of the people there were police cadets and I like them noticed I was wearing a police uniform. It seems that we were all to attend some police convention in Las Vegas. I could not quite believe my ears.

We had a meatier day than usual. We had bacon for breakfast, roast beef for lunch and roast pork for dinner. I had seconds on dinner. I went to the bakery at nine in the morning and again after dinner for a large coffee. Discovering that bag of change in my drawer is like hitting a gold mine, even if the majority of it is pennies. Right now I have two cigarettes left till mid day tomorrow. I had Drive radio on, as I often do on computer. There was a Hollies piece I’d never heard before. They had 1966 and most “classic rock” stations don’t go back that far. I think the “Shadows of Night” must have some special deal with jocks with these specials. I had Thom Hartman and Randy Rhodes on and fell asleep during Randy Rhodes. I had Judge Mathas on a bit. In the afternoon I did dial twereling and had channel 40.2 on some.

I was talking with Rene and she was saying she might have to go back to the hospital because they hadn’t treated her for an infected bug bits(s). I was thinking that they really ought to have some new TV series called “House of God”. It’s like “House” only it’s on the work of Angels and how they are constantly screwing things up making misdiagnoses on peoples’ lives. I figure they could hire George Tennent to introduce the program as some archangel who “decided to break away and tell all” about just how screwed up things were in heaven. On King of the Hill they talked about Arlen being originally Harlen, short for “Harlot town”. When you think about it Jesus is kind of like the original harlot who founded the Christian church. But the church was in a hurry to shown they had “outgrown” things like love, compassion, and human out-reach.

I guess Dennis Kasinich has a bill out to impeach Dick Chaney. Dare we to hope? Is impeachment just around the corner? Is momentum building. I just thought of another TV program they could do. “The world according to Marcus”. Not me, but the Marcus who lives here. He seems to have a well developed view of the whole world, and every day I am glimpsing some new aspect of his world view philosophy. Of course he has his own rather “Sci Fi” description of me. Sometimes I think he sees planet earth as just another player in some intra-galactic War Game. In this way he’s kind of like me and the Orion Federation although there are aspects of his philosophy I still don’t understand. Terror in the world is up World Wide they just announced on ABC News.

The Federation has reversed itself on the issue of Phil Specter. Much of the Federation’s former stance stemmed from the fact that John Lennon ended up hating him. But now Lennon appears to have flip-flopped. I don’t think they had Court today.

"Later that evening Steve Johnson was in the hall collecting crusifixes from all of the residents that had them. When asked what he was doing by the officials Steve said, "The Lord Hath need of them. I'm going to melt them down and put my image on them instead and then give them back to the residents". "Oh I'm releaved" said the attendant. For a brief moment I thought you were going to do something crazy. Well, carry on, then".