Daring to be Real

We now take you to the Detention Center of the Sutterans' home planet to sector 29 G where Marcus Arelius is preparing to put "special" mushrooms on his Salisbury steak he bought for four dollars a peace in the dining room of his bored and careless home. On the way he passed Celeste and gave her a dirty look. "Marcus don't get mad at me. You should have known I was a double agent. With any luck next time I'll side with you and stab your enemies in the back". "I'd like that" Marcus said as he made his drug induced shuffle to his table.

- - (later that evening)- - -and then “Pearl Harbor”. We didn’t see any Japanese planes but there was a regular romantic horse opera concerning a guy and some nurses. I switched to that murder thing on Dateline where the bride “dreamed” she’d seen her husband come home about sunrise to the cabin where they were staying after committing murder. This is the one where the guilty party had to be sterile and her husband wasn’t 20 years later. Also none of the hairs in the victim’s body matched her husband’s, but the twelve person jury found him guilty anyhow. After this it was “Law and Order”. I slept well last night. I didn’t have the J C show on at any time but once gave the station a shot, but it was just commercials.

This is Monday April 30, 2007 and on this date in 1973 Richard Nixon fired Halderman, Erlichman, and John Dean. That evening on the way to class at Cypress where I was taking that psychological human relations class or whatever, which Mom was also taking, Mom happened to mention that the state of California was thinking of going on super daylight savings time, or pushing the clock ahead two hours rather than one. That would make things interesting but I’ve never heard another word about it. This is the class that had the Lucure color test, which Europeans use to new job applicants to assess their psychological balance. I picked black and then red and the code said that meant I had suppressed feelings that would lead to some sort of emotional explosion. On or about this date in 1974 Richard Nixon had those cases filled with the White House tapes he was parading before the TV cameras saying, “This should end all controversy about Watergate”. Of course in 1945 on this date Aldolph Hitler and Joseph Goebles blew their trains out in the bunker. Hitler took his wife Eva Braun with him and Joseph Geobles wasted his wife and kids with poisoned chocolates. On yesterday’s date in 1992 was of course the start of the LA riots, which was early on a Wednesday evening. I remember I wanted to record part two of a special on Ted Kennedy and Chapiquittic. It was a few days later that I made phone call number five to The Asshole from El Paso, in what resulted in the worst to date of the five phone calls, and the Pastor did something that could and should have probably gotten fired due to an ethics briech. I don’t know if they call it de frocking or what? I remember they published some consoling letter the Pastor sent to Regenald Denny after his beating and I thought, “How funny. He treats total strangers with compassion and he treats me like crap”. There are times I fanticised about writing Danien Football Williams a note saying “I know how you hate Snitches. Well, here’s a guy you forgot to waste”. Of course one of the things I liked about the Calvary Chapels right off was Chuck’s attitude twords revenge. “No, their position on revenge isn’t going to be any problem at all”. Another area where the Calvaries are more than accommodating to the flesh is in the area of giving of both time and money. You know Gary is always coming to me with these “deals” like he’s down to his last buck, when he anything but, and also like I’m the last person on earth and even though I’m broke he spends all his time trying to milk a dry turnup. The Calvaries don’t care, and often seem to prefer that you not bother, when it comes to donating either time or money.

At the Movies was on last night with Roger Ebert gone for the millionth time. After this it was George Tennant. Now a lot of people might take offense to the Sixty Minutes segment but not me. I found it refreshing that somebody actually had the courage to get up on camera and Be Real. The man was flustered and agitated and obviously mad at himself. An anger he transferred to everyone he talked about. He was pissed at the idea that the fact they used “enhanced interrogation techniques” was revealed. He was ticked about Valerie Plane being outed. It bothered him that when he said it would be a “Slam Dunk” he was referring to the marketing of the War and not to any statement of fact about weapons of mass destruction. George Tennant was frustrated that he had all his CIA agents out there working trying to come up with information when George Bush had already made up his mind he was going to war in Iraq. In everything Tennant said he supported the Woodward book. He was ticked off at Clinton for ignoring his warnings but more pissed at George Bush for ignoring his more blatent and specific warnings about Al Qaida, like in July of 2001. Instead the whole report was shuffled off to Secretary Rice, whom in turn delegated it to lower level employees to study. We need people who are Real. We need people who are human enough to get upset when things don’t go their way and show it. We all can’t be like Secretary Rice and all the rest of those Bush Adminestration stooges who are so doped with qualudes and prozac that they are beyond feeling anything when they talk but look and sound like programmed zombies, just like Rev. you-know-who sounded like “HAL” in some of our conversation. He liked to push my buttons and get me angry but he never got angry himself, which in itself was a form of passive aggression, showing he was “above it all”.

Then they had the thing on mental illness and guns. I would just like to say the following. Of the people who seek to buy guns honestly and perhaps need to get one quickly, how many of those people are certifyably mentally ill. I myself have never been involuntarily committed as insane by a judge to a mental institution. Of course “Reverand Asshole” would probably love to spread the roomer that I was, judging from other things he’s said about me. That sounds like a fairly narrowly defined group of people and it sounds reasonable. But what if they expand the category soon to include all people who have been hospitalized? Then suppose they extend it to people who don’t do well on psychological tests, such as the kind they talk about in “Bigger Secrets”. Then suppose they have some “political aptitude” test you have to pass to make sure you aren’t a communist or something? Now here’s another question. Of all the murders and burglaries and muggings and the like where guns are used- - what percentage of those guns used in said felonies, were in every way purchased in an open and above board legal manner? Not many, I’d recon. Therefore the savings of lives would be minimal at best. OK those 33 people would be alive. But how many people get killed in War, or in traffic accidents or by some horrible disease caused by environmental pollution? Keep in mind what happened at Virginia Tech was the most flookish of incidents. I fear a world where everyone is paranoid hiding behind locked doors and not going out to parks or movies all because they’re afraid of either being mugged or having their child kidnapped and molested. Of course in Britain they have video cameras on every traffic corner. Is anyone proposing we do that here? What I fear is that the peramaters of “normal” will be narrowed down to some atomoton with no mind of his own and who believes only what the government tells him. I think we’re already headed in that direction.

There was a double Simpsons last night and then “Family Guy”. I had some dream last night I was arrested by the police for jay-walking or something and I was held in a police station for several hours before they decided whether I was to be thrown in jail. There were times I thought I’d be released then I wasn’t. There was talk maybe I would be transported to Las Vegas. In the course of time I was beaten with a baton, and I was grabbed and given a real “nerd” haircut. At the end of the movie some guy gave a speech and at dawned on me the rest of the people there were police cadets and I like them noticed I was wearing a police uniform. It seems that we were all to attend some police convention in Las Vegas. I could not quite believe my ears.

We had a meatier day than usual. We had bacon for breakfast, roast beef for lunch and roast pork for dinner. I had seconds on dinner. I went to the bakery at nine in the morning and again after dinner for a large coffee. Discovering that bag of change in my drawer is like hitting a gold mine, even if the majority of it is pennies. Right now I have two cigarettes left till mid day tomorrow. I had Drive radio on, as I often do on computer. There was a Hollies piece I’d never heard before. They had 1966 and most “classic rock” stations don’t go back that far. I think the “Shadows of Night” must have some special deal with jocks with these specials. I had Thom Hartman and Randy Rhodes on and fell asleep during Randy Rhodes. I had Judge Mathas on a bit. In the afternoon I did dial twereling and had channel 40.2 on some.

I was talking with Rene and she was saying she might have to go back to the hospital because they hadn’t treated her for an infected bug bits(s). I was thinking that they really ought to have some new TV series called “House of God”. It’s like “House” only it’s on the work of Angels and how they are constantly screwing things up making misdiagnoses on peoples’ lives. I figure they could hire George Tennent to introduce the program as some archangel who “decided to break away and tell all” about just how screwed up things were in heaven. On King of the Hill they talked about Arlen being originally Harlen, short for “Harlot town”. When you think about it Jesus is kind of like the original harlot who founded the Christian church. But the church was in a hurry to shown they had “outgrown” things like love, compassion, and human out-reach.

I guess Dennis Kasinich has a bill out to impeach Dick Chaney. Dare we to hope? Is impeachment just around the corner? Is momentum building. I just thought of another TV program they could do. “The world according to Marcus”. Not me, but the Marcus who lives here. He seems to have a well developed view of the whole world, and every day I am glimpsing some new aspect of his world view philosophy. Of course he has his own rather “Sci Fi” description of me. Sometimes I think he sees planet earth as just another player in some intra-galactic War Game. In this way he’s kind of like me and the Orion Federation although there are aspects of his philosophy I still don’t understand. Terror in the world is up World Wide they just announced on ABC News.

The Federation has reversed itself on the issue of Phil Specter. Much of the Federation’s former stance stemmed from the fact that John Lennon ended up hating him. But now Lennon appears to have flip-flopped. I don’t think they had Court today.

"Later that evening Steve Johnson was in the hall collecting crusifixes from all of the residents that had them. When asked what he was doing by the officials Steve said, "The Lord Hath need of them. I'm going to melt them down and put my image on them instead and then give them back to the residents". "Oh I'm releaved" said the attendant. For a brief moment I thought you were going to do something crazy. Well, carry on, then".

A Six Year Old Mystery

Today is an interesting date, Friday April 27th. 2001. On this date I was told that I could get my prescription of Serax refilled and I had been waiting for it in anticipation. But the darker secret is I believe the doctor had had me on placibos since January. Let me back up and say that this doctor had prescribed Serax before for my alcoholism in the past for exceedingly short periods of time such as ten days. When he had done so the drug worked beautifully. But he hadn't let me have Serax in a long time. Along about the middle of the January 2001 my prescription of Zyprexa ran out suddenly, and as a side effect of this I began having digestive problems and anxiousness, and by the way I also lost fifteen pounds between mid January and June first. My appitite was out the window. My doctor said he'd put me back on Serax, which is "one of the shortest acting of all the tranqualizers'. Why would an alcoholic need the "shortest lasting drug"? Often I have wondered, "what if I intervened and went back into the past then and talked to myself them. What would I say?" I was thinking perhaps I'd have said on the afternoon of April 27th. that fateful Friday, "Just take your serax and don't drink". In point of fact I did not even use most of this prescription, so slight did I perceive any effectiveness. When I moved in here I had over a half bottle of serax capsules, most of the prescription. When I took the pills here sometimes I'd double up just to experiment. Even when you doubled up dosages there seemed to be no dissernable effect. What the doctor had done in effect was allow me to discontinue suddenly a drug that was helping (though prescribed for other psychological reasons) and get on a placibo, and I lost fifteen pounds in four months. Of course this doctor was a Christian and known to my brother and also known to gossip about his patients in Christian circles. I had the sense as a Calvary Chapel member I was pretty much washed up. There were some sins they just didn't tollerate even a whisper of and alcoholisum was one of them. One time there was a guy named Don Stewart, who got a woman pregnent. Even though they eventually got married he was never able to live the event down, and was eventually driven out of the church. "And that's the way it is".

All of the eight democratic candidates debates last night in South Carolina. It would seem that Hillary won the debate beating Obama, who seemed weak and indecisive, while Hillary seemed "Presidential". Joe Byden, Dennis Kasinich, and John Edwards and three others were there. Of course now the senate and the house are ready to combine a bill to be sent to the President's desk to cut off funds for the War, which the President will veto. Dennis Kasinitch says congress should get a spine and not send up another bill. If the president will not accept No Funding, but keeps the troops there anyhow, then we have a genuine constitutional crisis on our hands. It would from there be logical to take the logical next step and draw up impeachment charges.

Stephen Hawking has now flown in weightlessness. Of course the planes fly in the path of a parabala, which can easily graphed on your Excell software. All of the time within the parabala they are weightless. He has ALS or Lou Garig's disease. I guess you could say it's the first time a disabeled man has flown in space.

There are several types of antideprecents. There is the type of drug Elliville is in, which dates back over fourty years ago. These drugs lift your spirits. Then we have the M A O or mono-amine-oxate (?) inhibitors. This substance can be found in belladona and other cold remedies and they give you a warning. The most dangerous of the three types of antidepressents are the "seretonin re-updake inhibitors". What these drugs do is block the brain off from its own perception of reality. It also blocks off normal feelings and also the perceived feelings of others. There were roomers that Bush 41 took Prozac, which is one of this type of drug. Either Eric Harris or Dylan Clayborne or both took Zoloft, another of this type of antidepressent drug. Teenagers are known to go whacko when in this type of medication either in committing suicide or else becomming a mass murderor. The slayer at Virginia Tech is roomered to be on this class of seretonin drugs. We said before that a guy in my life we called "Gianni Versace" was hooked on this type of drug and more than one in fact and was showing symptums of overdose several months ago. I think we're going to change his name to "The great pervericator". As you know there are some people who are too wicked to even qualify as antichrist. Perhaps the asshole from El Paso could make antichrist. But not "The Great Peravacator" even though "Mr. El Paso" is influenced by The Great Peraveracator. In order to run the world you have to have some kind of a logical mind. You have to organize the army, and organize your adminestration of govt. and insure that things are opperative. The Great Pereveracator lacks the mental discipline to do even thig. (So he can run the world) Pastor "Mike Bowman", whom we have mentioned before is kind of like Jim Jones, only showing less initiative. But he has all of the same base desires to be worshipped unconditionally and swath himself in adoring fans. You think of the antichrist being some highly motivated, organized person that "didn't quite make the cut" whereas in realidy Satan might take someone who otherwise is a real worm, and build up into something. Something to think about.

George Tennant's new book is out where the former CIA Chief says, "I confess- - Chaney did it". Now Tennant, who is known as one of the major protagonists for the Iraq War, seems to be disowning his own words and saying that the War was all Dick Chaney's idea. Saddam has been "contained". We all know this. Sometimes it's interesting to see how the Born Again right wing has evolved over the years. These right wing Christians now obviously see George Bush as their Saviour. But they never would have done this thirty or thirty-five years ago. They never would have trusted ANY man in a secular government. (Of course now the wall between church and state is brieched so it isn't so "secular" any more) 35 years ago Christians were content to have their heads in the clouds thinking about angels and the Age to Come, and how wonderful it will be perpetually living in the Love of Jesus. In those days they still had long hair and dressed like hippies. My how things have changed! What changed them obviously was the realization that Jesus isn't "coming back" to "set up his kingdom on earth". They can't rely on Jesus any more; now it's up to them. You might say their God has gotten smaller over the years. Now it looks like Larry Elder. Of course they aren't happy with any of the choices on the Republican ticket. I'm as curious as you are as to what they are going to do now. There are so many books out now -and George Tennant's is only the latest - saying how the Right Wing have ostracized themselves from main stream society and logical, normal thinking. I guess we're just going to have to let the saga unfold and see what happens.

Taking On the Devil

Some of the things you think are gospell aren't so. Leo Le Port said quite some time back that my space was old hat and that all the really hip teenagers had moved off of it and now my space was seen as a pretty rank place to hang out. Well, according to Montell Williams "My Space" is far from pase having fifty million subscribers and still is number one. Christianity should take heart. They're still "Number One" despite all the "decline" we've heard about for the past forty years. If you ever see my name attatched to a my space blog, rest assured it isn't me. If I ever decide to join my space I'll let you people know. Tomorrow or Wednesday is the one year anniversary of me as a blogger. When I started my liberalisum had not fully evolved and you saw tringes of conservatisum. Of course early postings were padded out with such things as letters to Larry Elder, Rush Limbaugh, or the Jesus Christ show. Keep in mind all that Orion Federation stuff I talk about is material fifteen and twenty years old. Last night I dreamed I was in my old apartment swinning pool and looked up in the sky and thought there was a lot of stuff up there. It was early twilight. I noticed a number of bizzare lit up shapes that turned out to be space craft as they got closser and I learned they were flying into a space port that was less than a block away.

Taking on the Devil is always risky. It's always better to just avoid the Devil if you can because you know he runs a rigged crap game. On the soap operas "Days" and "Passions" the Devil's strength lies in his threat to expose truth about people. Much of the strength of soap plots lies in people's extreme moral corawdess, and the consequences of their inaction in letting the Devil call the shots. For instance if I were Chad and I had and I had that gay stalker I'd expose him in three nano seconds. And you have Samantha and E J Wells. Samantha drugged him in that cabin but then was afraid to drop the lit match. She decided to leave but when she was just outside the cabin exploded in fire anyhow. I guess the idea of secrecy is a powerful one. Last night they talked about all these "Don't Snitch" RAP artists that spiew their sick lyrics and are financed by the leading corporations. One wonders whether they have a contience at all. So it seems like if you rape, extort, rob, or murder you get a free pass in the ghetto. To tell you the truth I really didn't know it was that bad. It just isn't among a certain gang or the mafia; this belief is among the general "good people" in the population and even little kids are indoctrinated with it at a young age. I'm not sure what can be done about this "No Snitch" lyric besides boycott the record companies, of course. I'm sure James Dobson must have talked about it some time but I have no specific recollection. Why live in a world where murderors and rapists call the tune. I don't see why good men would let their women be exposed to such danger. What do you think your little kids will be like when they're adults? Will there even BE civilization by then? It's moral cowardess in the extreme.

Of course I'm glad it's a new week and all the Virginia Tech students are back in school. Are they going to keep that one building closed down forever? I am strongly against having made April 20th. a perpetual holiday at Columbine High school. That is making a monument to fear. As Ethan says, "I choose not to live in fear". Go to school on that day and prove to one and all those two killers have no right to disturb your routine. Personally I was against a lot of disruption people chose to have happen because of 9 - 11. Some of the dialog in the media is strange. There was the case of a plane crash at an Air Show and we heard little about it. There was that Johnson Space center hostage situation they didn't even break soap coverage to cover. (if a few acres in Hollywood are on fire they'll have coverage for multiple hours even if there is no news) There was a shooting where a cop was called to quell a domestic disturbance and both the husband and the wife ended up dead. (sounds like the police screwed up) We've heard almost nothing. This Virginia Tech stuff has pushed so many things off the news. We haven't even heard about the Political Candidates the past week or more because of Virginia Tech. We are treated to all of this guild ridden hand wringing and recrimination about showing the assasin vidio that he made. My view is "If you don't want to talk about it than DON'T) But that's all we heard was wierdos and geeks and how do you spot them. A regular epidemic of geek-o-phobia has broken out in the media. I think the message is, "If you see a wierdo, never try to talk to him. Just start whispering roomers about him behind his back or call the cops on him making up something". People talk about "homophobia" but this behavior in the last week in the media seems obcessively strange to me. Their message seems to be "There are a lot of wierdos out there. Be Afraid. Be Very Afraid". It makes no sense.

The Democrats aren't pursuing any new gun laws. This is considered a "conspiricy", of course. A vast right wing conspiricy. People can read the constitution. People like Thom Hartman and Randy Rhodes say that there ARE NO RIGHTS guarendeed in the 2nd. amendment. No inailiable rights. There are "provisional" rights, or is it "priveleges" in the 2nd. amendment. These liberals say the amendment is about a state melitia. The only thing wrong with this argument is that no democrat believes in State's rights, so what are they talking about. In Colonial times every one was expected to own a gun, just as everyone was expected to have a fire bucket with water in it ready for action. Gun preparedness was seen as an issue of public safety. I think somewhere along the way my generation and those younger than me, have gotten brainwashed on the subject of guns. People say that laws should be tough on guns and apparently lienient on other crime. (It used to be that way) Now they have the three strikes law. This law is tough and has gotten lots of violent offenders off the streets and has done so by getting people who comit crimes out of the general population but NOT because they own a gun. Last election voters had a chance to soften the three strikes law here in California and water it down. I voted against the amendment for five reasons. There were five dangerous provisions in the bill that would redefine violent acts. You could burglarize a home and this was fine as long as you never confronted the owner. You could burn down a building, as long as nobody ended up getting killed. It didn't matter if you were a part of a violent youth gang. And also torturing animals was taken "off the table". If you want to look at anybody to see if they'll be violent, just watch how they treat innocent animals.

You know it's been pointed out that nobody wants to arrest Stephen King for "subversive and dangerous writing". I've sent the Asshole from El Paso a few letters and some had fictional scenarios in them. In the first letter I did a story that was inspired by Rush Limbaugh and "Gulf War I" which in his version opened with Saddam's Husein raping his mother when he was conceived after first being offered a New York school system condum. In My version it opens with a black and white snow and wind swept scene of a sign in Hebrew that an overlay tells you is actually Bethlehem. The Jesus family is in one of the local slum tennaments (not off by themselves with a halo over them) and as we go inside there is a baby crying, which of course is baby Jesus. His parents Mary and Joseph are quareling and Joseph is accusing Mary of going back to sleeping around with men like she used to do. She is saying this all in front of Jesus OLDER brothers, who getting their things ready for school or something. In my second letter mailed July 7th. 1991 I included a "take off" story on the progigal son in which the younger brother when he comes back home sit around watching pornography and then he invites a bunch of girls over and they film their own pornographic movies. It didn't strike me just because the Asshole from El Paso was a former actor he'd be offended by this. There is also a sequence at the beginning of the movie where the earth gets off its axis and contenents topple and chaos reigns and the tides sway. But then the US Army under George Bush comes and puts everything right. Feel free to interperet this however you like.

I'd like to talk just a little about Alberto Gonsolez. It seems some prosecutors were let go because they failed to prosecute for "Voter fraud" and yet as Thom Hartman points out "Election fraud" is far more massive and pervaisive and the thing that they should be looking for. Arlen Specter says that he's more or less convinced no crimes were committed but he's still not "satified" with Gonsolez's answers. The whole Gonsolez senate testimony has been underplayed by the media. Some stations on cable that normally carry it wern't this time. Station 4.4 in our area was carrying it some of the time and I watched that. The whole thing is they want a unitary form of Government where the President holds all power. Thom Hartman doesn't want the Attorney General to resign, he wants him Impeached. That's a lofty goal. I think Thom Hartman grossly overestamates the inclination of this Senate body to get to the truth. Hartman says that in 1987 they made a deal not to talk about a lot of issues. I'd heard this before, that the perameters of the investigation were vastly narrowed. I heard there was a deal Reagan would never be implicated. Hartman thinks there was an arms for hostages deal made with Iran in 1980 that won the election for Reagan to begin with. I don't know. I don't think anybody from the President down will be charged with anything. Perhaps that's going a little far but the thing is I don't see specific crimes being spelled out. The thing is when I tune in to watch I find myself getting bored fairly quickly. They just keep going over minutia and Gonsolez keeps evading and he'll be able to do that till the cows come home. I don't know- - maybe when Guiliani or Hillary become president they'll take another more serious look at all this and may then we'll see stuff getting done.

Beguiled by the Extraordenary

Sometimes you shouldn't speak right away in responding to a news event. This whole shooting at Virginia Tech requires prayer and meditation about it. We need to extend our prayers both for the injured families of the victims, but we also pray for any other mentally deranged people out there that might think about doing the same thing. It's something that people are constantly second guessing. What if the cops had closed down the campus after the first shooting? What if these teachers who knew he was mentally ill had spoken up more vocally. What if the right people has been warned? I think what we need to realize is one source told us to tell our kids is "This is a very unusual event". It's extraordenary. They call events extraordenary because they are events that don't occur every day. But it's pointed out that in big cities violence actually does go on every day and we don't think about it because it's gang violence. It's black on black crime there people think less of it. But we should not be beguiled by the extraordenary. A lot of things can be extraordenary. You could have extraordenary forgiveness. If one of the Black tribes was the sole surviving member of her family the rest of which were slaughtered by the Arab tribes on a killing rampage, and she said "I forgive them", this would be extraordenary. But some would make forgiveness an every day, yes, even a required activity for instance to be "really accepted as a Christian". This is an unreasonable requirement because certain things are notworthy BECAUSE they are UNUSUAL. If they occurred every day or were required they would be "expected" and hence the thing that makes them unique would be lost. You know- forgiveness last I heard was a volitional and conscious act tword another. In order to forgive you have to Remember the offences they did. If you've forgotten them due to the passage of time or surpression of memories, you can't truely forgove the other person. God said "Vengance is mine. I will repay". So even if you say "I leave you to the mercies of God, don't expect God is going to have the same compultion he MUST forgive the other as you have. Some sins are not yours to forgive. (Selah) There are extraordenary meracles such as Jesus rising from the dead. My position on this is even if it happened- even if they had photographic or movie proof of it- - even if they proved the image on the Shroud was some radioactive residu of the "life force" or something, this in itself wouldn't mean that much in the overall scheme of things. Acterall it would be a flook. That's what a flook is. It's something that happens that doesn't have any particular meaning beyond what it is. If Jesus resurrected from the dead it wouldn't mean death was destroyed because it clearly is with us. It wouldn't mean that all our sins were wiped away for all time because they clearly haven't been. You have extraordenary giving. Jesus told about the poor widdow giving her last two mites which was "all she had to live on". Are we to infer that she had no friends and that she now had no place to live and would starve to death? I don't think so. Gene Scott seemed to almost EXPECT people to give "alabaster boxes" in duplication of what Mary Magdolane gave to Jesus. Again, if everybody gave precious gifts the act would not be as extraordenary as it is. Some people are asked to have extraordenary faith and patience. I seem to have been one of these as a Christian. My relationship with God might be defined the way Malery described her relation with Skippy, a boy who had a crush on her. "I thought we each understood our relationship. You get down on your knees and grovel and say you can't live without me- - - and I reject you". (It's always worked in the past) Some people have extraordenary courage throwing themselves on a granade to sacrifice themselves to save all the others in their platoon. But extraordenary doesn't always mean good. What if a man had a fifteen inch long penis that was erect for eight and nine hours at a time and the shaft was three & a half inches in diameter? That would be extraordenary but it would be nothing to be desired. We have a word for "extraordenary" cell growth. It's known as cancer. Sometimes you can have extraordenary luck, as in the case of a person who wins the Lotterey. Yet some one like Joel Olsteen seems to think that if you have the right attitude twords God, everyone can win the Lotterey of life. But if everyone was a winner the prize wouldn't be so high. Some say "You shouldn't be trapped by the belief in limited good". These people obviously have grown up in the family I grew up in or served in the same Christian religion I have served in. Sunday after Sunday we would be treated to sermons on how God is so MAD at those Isrialites wandering in the wilderness and doubting his word- - that he's apparently exausted his mercy and grace for all time so now if you ask for so much as 35 cents to make a phone call God will bite your head off. These are things to think about.

The whole issue of Guns and the availability of them has been raised the past few days by people like Randy Rhodes and Thom Hartman. I'm getting a little sick of it myself. You know the drill. Guns don't kill; people kill. Why blame the guy who sold Chow those guns. He didn't know Chow was mentally ill, as Rush points out. But others did know he was mentally ill. You know- sometimes shit happens. What if you lived in Iraq now. Wouldn't that DEATH qualify as something to complain that "This shouldn't happen again". Nobody thinks of that. Some people repeat the lie that you shouldn't own a gun to defend your home from burglers because the burgler might get your gun and kill you with it. This is a lie often spun by Michal Jackson on his radio show. It's a bunch of "Bulsh". Statistics have shown that where the criminal fears the people of a residence are armed, they won't break into the house. You know people talk about the wild west and yet Jesse James when he robbed all those trains and banks really could count on the fact that the comon people wern't armed. If they had been, he wouldn't have gotten away with the things he did. Now I hear that guns were espressly banned from the Virginia Tech campus. This only will insure that Chow will be uncontested on his shooting rampage. Perhaps, as Rush points out, if people had it to experiance over again they would all rush the suspect and grab his gun to stop him from firing. It would seem to me sort of a group "survival of the species" instinct. Even if one of the people dies, the others by their sheer number will stop the shooter. Why is it we didn't have psychopaths like this in the old West? Some people say that Chow wrote disturbing and disturbed stories. I accessed one on the internet courtesy World Net Daily. The story wasn't my cup of tea but it's absurd to say that people who write about violent things must be violent. What about Samantha Brady killing E J Wells on Days of our Lives? Isn't that violent? Who wrote that story line. Should someone have them comitted? I don't like the term "rambling" to describe letters and speeches and stories of psychopaths. It's one of those loaded red hering words. What about sermons of people like Gene Scott. Those things were rambling. Gene Scott was proactively proud of how disorganized his sermons were and how far they had deviated from any outline. He called it "being carried away in the spirit". People who "ramble" probably (a) have a lot to say and (b) have little time to say it and have to cram it all in quickly.

Rush Limbaugh has said perhaps it's political correctness that's the problem because we are told not to infringe on others lives but to "let them do their thing". Of course the left is running into big problems these days. Gonsolez is going to make mince meat of congress and make all the democrats look like fools. Anyone's a fool if they think the agenda of George Bush can be stopped. People may whine about George Bush but they'll turn around and vote republican next year, probably for Guiliani. Now there's an artical in World Net Daily where a woman shattered one of these new mercury long life bulbs and had to call the toxic control center. She should have just vaccumed it up and that's the point. We kids used to play with mercury at various times during elementry school and got the gray residu on our fingers but I don't remember anybody getting mercury poisoning. People will buy a hybred to save gas rather than by a giant S U V, but at the same time producing that hybred might have expended more resources than producting of the S U V did.

I can only express my joy that the Supreme Court thanks to Justice Kennedy upheld the ban on partial birth abortions passed by Congress in 2003. Rush Limbaugh's joy seemed to be extremely muted but this is a time to celebrate. Justice Sculie said that Roe vs Wade had to be taken down door frame by door frame. If this be the case then I say let us continue that forward march. I think it would be easy to throw out Roe vs Wade because the child in the origional case was never aborted. Therefore you have no case to begin with. You have a void verdict. A few years ago I voted no on a proposition that granted people the power to sue for envirnmental polution that wern't harmed themselves. No. I believe you have to have an actual case.